Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Humor Anyone?

One of the things I deal with is feeling illegitimate.  What I mean by that is I wonder if I can actually have an opinion that is worthwhile.  If I can participate in conversations, parent my children and appear confident at all without someone looking at me like I'm an alien or like I'm 5 pretending to be 35.  I still treat myself like I'm 15, not like I'm in my 30s.

So I've been working on it.  Self talk is supposed to be one of the ways to do that.

So one day I'm standing in my closet picking out my clothes for the day.  My husband and I have a fairly large closet and we each have a portion.  My husband has to walk through my side to get out. 

I also need to mention that the light is on my side of the closet.

So, I'm standing there, particularly anxious about something for that day and my confidence level in dealing with that situation, saying to myself over and over, "I'm legitimate.  I'm legitimate.  I'm legitimate."  Over and over.

My husband, also in the closet, walks out of the closet, walks right past me and shuts the light out. 


How ironic was that?

I said, "Hey!  I'm still in here!" 

His mind was apparently elsewhere and he just didn't realize.  It's almost stunning the coincidence of that though.  He apologized and we both shared a laugh over the irony of the whole thing.

Can you find any humor in dealing with yourself today?  I hope so because sometimes it just gets too serious.

Here's to working on ourselves and finding joy even in that.


  1. I can definitely relate to feeling like a kid inside. I am finally learning to make peace with that little girl and not let her freak me out. However, I'm not always so good at it. I don't know how long it takes for the outside and inside to match up, but it sure feels better knowing I'm not the only one who struggles with those feelings! :)

  2. Wow! Thank you for saying that Lori. It makes me feel better to know I'm not the only one who feels that way too! How did you start to work on that so reality would match your perception?


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