Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I'm very black and white. In my life, unlike this picture, there is very little gray.
With me, if you're a person, you fall in 1 of 2 camps, safe and unsafe. Once you make it into the unsafe camp, you are more than likely going to stay there. And I'm going to avoid you at all costs.
My husband and I have been talking about this a lot lately and had a lengthy conversation about it tonight.
I'm feeling used a lot in relationships. That is not an uncommon feeling for me to have, but it's going above and beyond what I've experienced in a long time. I think that feeling is merited on some level but perhaps not to the level I'm taking it.
I tend to avoid in depth relationships like the plague because they don't usually turn out well. I am more than happy to have conversations of depth, but not a relationship of depth. There's a big difference.
I despise superficiality, which is why I like conversations of depth. But, do not ask me to trust you and see you on a regular basis. There is just no way that is going to happen. What is that all about?
For the sake of my children I'm going to have to figure this one out. But I have no idea how to do that.
Can you relate at all? Any suggestions?